i found something really good. i'm so thankful for this, really. nobody has ever showed me how much they care like this before. yeah, i was pretty stupid at first and i know i should have believe every word from you rather than from a girl who lied so much, a girl who i thought was my bestfriend. your the best thing that's ever happened to me. and i can't wait til i see you again and when i can call you mine<3
Thursday, June 18, 2009
Lately I've been pretty unsure about who I am as a person. But I'm learning to really appreciate my life & the people in it who make it that much more. My family & bestfriends especially. My boyfriend who is seriously the best thing that's ever happened to me, who constantly makes me smile. I'm done worrying about things going wrong & my many flaws that will take me nowhere. I'm done dealing with people who think nothing of me, because I know I mean a whole lot of something to the people I hold close to my heart. Life is so precious & delicate. I'm done with people thinking they can shake me with their hateful words. All I'm worried about now is getting my life together, becoming a successful young person & finding something to live for<3
Love isn't perfect. I realized that w/ you. But things couldn't last forever. It's time for us to move on, & maybe there's something better out there for the both of us. I really think that I cared for you so much. But at the same time, I think I deserve alot better. I'm really sorry for putting you through everything that I did.
The life you live is the one you will cherish. Don't look back on what you have done. Look ahead to what you will do to change yourself or the people around you. Sometimes happiness is right in front of our eyes and somehow, we still can't find it. Sometimes I can't believe how people steal ones happiness & waste it. They try to take away every smile and replace it with a tear or a sense of fear. I hate that. I hate going from being a girl without a care in the world about the people who care less & less about me, to caring so much I can barely get a good grasp on my life. I'm finally comfortable in my own skin, finally happy with who I've become & ready for whatever's gonna get tossed my way. Everyday I wake up and think, it will be a good day if you really want it to be. I had no idea how much a little compliment or a short conversation with someone new, could put the biggest smile on their face. A frown to a huge smile within a matter of seconds. I'm realizing that underneath it all, a person can have so much more meaning & so much more love can be shared.